Ivan Neal grew up with a testimony of the gospel . . . and with feelings of same-sex attraction. He believed that if he did what Heavenly Father asked, his sexual attraction would be changed. When this didn’t happen, Ivan vowed to take his painful secret to his grave. After serving a Church mission, he continued working for what he wanted most—a wife and children. But over time, shame and loneliness became Ivan’s constant companions, and he wondered how he could start a family when it seemed his life was turning into one big lie. Yet he feared that if he told anyone he was gay, he would lose everything: his family, his friends, his job, and his Church membership. Then one day, Ivan found the courage to reach out for help. Over time, he recognized that God did have a plan for him—one that would bring great joy to Ivan and to many others facing the same struggle. This is the powerful story of how a man reconciled his Latter-day Saint faith with his sexual orientation. While this book specifically addresses the choices confronting those with same-gender attraction, the messages of hope will resonate with anyone who has a hidden sorrow.